Are We Judas?

I have worked on this blog piece for over a week. I have no doubt been trying to run from it as I was unsure the commentary I might receive back from it. If you have ever walked out of obedience to God, you understand that it does and SHOULD make you feel uncomfortable. If you are knowingly sinning and walking out of obedience to God, you should be uncomfortable. If you do not feel discomfort or conviction while sinning, you need to take a repent and turn back. Which brings me to the original intent of this post, Judas. If you have been in church at all, you know who Judas is, or at least his act of betrayal against Jesus before his death. We have all probably felt a little vitriol against him at some point during our walk with God. But how many times have we been Judas? How many times have we knowingly walked out of obedience to God, his word, and/or his will? And how many of those times have been for far less of a reward than what Judas received. If you are reading this thinking, "oh that could never be me", you better give Judas a really hard look. Judas was a disciple, who was face to face with Jesus, and STILL betrayed him. If someone who was that close to Jesus, can do to him what Judas did, what makes us think we are above it? We aren't. And a large part of me feels sad for Judas, because I have been there. The past 6 months for me have been a long process of grieving the ways that I knowingly grieved the Lord. I know people will come on here and tell you that you should not live in the past, he has forgiven your sins. But a large part of repentance for me, was gaining a true grasp on the reality that I had knowingly grieved him, and it broke me. If you have never been broken by God, you really are missing out. Sometimes things have to be broken, so the fixer can make them new again. I implore you to allow God to break you for purposes of his glory and your freedom. Do it while you still have time. Knowing Judas was so grieved at what he did, that he took his own life makes me appreciate the fact that I still have time for the Lord to do work in me. For I have been Judas, and now I walk free by the grace of God.

Lord, please help us to be humble in all of our ways. Help us to see when we are wrong, and when our heart posture needs work. In this season, I ask that you break us for your glory and our freedom. The bible tells us that you know the plans you have for us, and those are for our good, and if we seek you with all of our hearts, we will find you. Give us the strength in this moment to seek you and give us the grace to find you. Amen.